It will feel like a taste of heaven at first, because despite all of the self-work and healing you’ve done, regardless of how far you’ve come since the discard; your deepest, most private prayers and wishes of love have been answered.
It’s been such a long time since you felt like this… so complete, accepted, and loved. You will feel alive again. Your world is as it should be again. You can stop the recovery work and love life again.
You knew it! You KNEW you felt a very real connection back then. Maybe it just wasn’t the right time for the two of you… maybe you weren’t ready for each other. Perhaps they needed time to miss you and realize just how lonely, colorless and miserable life is without you. You really don’t care what the reason is, do you? Because your together forever has finally arrived.
Then out of nowhere, the unsettling thoughts and feelings come rushing back. Small discrepancies in the things they say. The “unintentional” disrespect. This can’t be happening… yes, you’re just being paranoid.